Sometimes.

Sometimes I browse job postings on the local classifieds.
Sometimes I get frustrated because I want to use my cool design skills at a 'real' job doing 'real' grown up type work.
Sometimes I have to remind myself that right now, Im not supposed to be working at a big time real job.
Sometimes I daydream about that perfect job for me.
Sometimes I dont even know what that job is.
Sometimes I want to apply and interview for jobs.

I feel like my creative/professional purpose is lurking in the shadows and I can't quite find it. Im looking though.